Saturday, Apr 14, 2012
5:15 AM
Just now I had a conversation with a friend. we talked about our life and ended up with our love life. I never knew that we had the same experience. That the girl we loved left because the decision we made was wrong. we talked for abit and he said that his a muslim and I was amazed, as what i know all muslims can love as much as 4 girls. but he choose to love one 1 girl, even though we both have the same experience we also have different intentions for him he is happy aslong as the girl that he loves is happy with the man that's she's with. For me Ill try and try to get her attention again, not with the use of force but with simple actions and words I love her and if I were given a chance I will not do the same mistake I did 3 years ago. I do not know if ofher people are also facing this kind of situation but whatever it is. Try and try do not give up hope for doing nothing gains you nothing.
Biyernes, Abril 13, 2012
Beauty and Madness
Saturday, Apr 14,2012
2:15 AM
Have you ever felt so alone, no one to talk too, like everyday is a struggle. Haven't felt this kind of feeling how you may call this sadness or depression in my life before. Its like everyday im trying to find myself looking for somone, trying to reach this particular person, trying to grasp and holding on to what keeps me close to that person. Picture,Letters,Notes, everything that was left I kept them all so dear and close never I have felt such pain in my entire life. I know that learning from our mistakes can make you a better person and now that I have learned my mistake from my wrong decisions I had to pay a price, so dear that it almost breaks me apart. Being left by the person that I spent 2 years of my life changed me literally inside and out. I tried mailing her, texting her, asked for one last chance so I can make the wrong decision i made right again. I have been trying 3 years now since I last saw her and since then i have been trying to contact her at any means possible. I tried looking for sombody else but I can't find the intimacy the happiness the Joy that i had. I miss her alot, so much that i don't know what to do with my life anymore. All our goals our plans everything was wasted cause of a very very wrong decision. I have to struggle, I have to be strong, but still i am dragged by my sadness down that I can't shake it. I am still human a person who is tempted, weak and full of imperfections, but I will still pursue until my dying breath. Cause deep inside I know i can't leave without her but if ever the time comes when she found somone else maybe, just maybe it would be the time for me to let go.
Wednesday, June 27,2012
10:59 PM
Many has happened after 2 months, and lessons learned. being at the front line of all the outburst and outcomes I stand strong. Even at my weakest point I never gave in. Time and time again I kept thinking to stop but someone was pushing me to keep on moving forward. It was weeks ago that made me realize that I was not alone in this world, that I can lean on when im down. you may call them friends but I call them Family.
2:15 AM
Have you ever felt so alone, no one to talk too, like everyday is a struggle. Haven't felt this kind of feeling how you may call this sadness or depression in my life before. Its like everyday im trying to find myself looking for somone, trying to reach this particular person, trying to grasp and holding on to what keeps me close to that person. Picture,Letters,Notes, everything that was left I kept them all so dear and close never I have felt such pain in my entire life. I know that learning from our mistakes can make you a better person and now that I have learned my mistake from my wrong decisions I had to pay a price, so dear that it almost breaks me apart. Being left by the person that I spent 2 years of my life changed me literally inside and out. I tried mailing her, texting her, asked for one last chance so I can make the wrong decision i made right again. I have been trying 3 years now since I last saw her and since then i have been trying to contact her at any means possible. I tried looking for sombody else but I can't find the intimacy the happiness the Joy that i had. I miss her alot, so much that i don't know what to do with my life anymore. All our goals our plans everything was wasted cause of a very very wrong decision. I have to struggle, I have to be strong, but still i am dragged by my sadness down that I can't shake it. I am still human a person who is tempted, weak and full of imperfections, but I will still pursue until my dying breath. Cause deep inside I know i can't leave without her but if ever the time comes when she found somone else maybe, just maybe it would be the time for me to let go.
Wednesday, June 27,2012
10:59 PM
Many has happened after 2 months, and lessons learned. being at the front line of all the outburst and outcomes I stand strong. Even at my weakest point I never gave in. Time and time again I kept thinking to stop but someone was pushing me to keep on moving forward. It was weeks ago that made me realize that I was not alone in this world, that I can lean on when im down. you may call them friends but I call them Family.
Huwebes, Abril 12, 2012
First among the rest
Attention: Play the Music Before Reading to make it more sensible hope you enjoy =)
(He is one of my Favorite Pianist)
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Have you ever fell inlove before? feeling your blood rushing through your head, heart pumping and hands shaking. All of us have different storys to tell, and i know some of us and maybe mostly it doesn't end that well.
As a teen I was limited to sorts of stuff, as I grew up and wondered or asked how do people get so close and comfortable with each other. have you ever thought the same when you were a teen? I was a fresh graduate in Highschool and went to Collage well for me Collage was still the same as Highschool but the difference is that the students have to move from classroom to classroom. well same old same old subjects, sitting, writing , listening to boring instructors and etc. that's life as a student.
after 1 year....
As I went to 2nd year all things changed when i was asked by a friend to join an organization that is organized by the school, well i said to myself "Why not give it a try?". And yes their it was, now we started forming circles and that to start the ceremony each of us was asked to get a number and that number has a pair, and you should give somthing special to your pair now I grab the number and do nothing like im not intersted or somthing but when it started I felt nervous who will be my pair etc etc,
and when number 3 was called I stood up and my pair stood up I was not expecting my pair to be a girl
I looked at her and I was mesmerized by her looks and start to think what should i give her? so she 1st handed me her special item that Item was a "ROSARY". I was shocked and smiled now it was my turn to give her somthing but I had nothing. then I remembered one had brought a guitar and maybe I should sing to her but when I was about to grabe the guitar I saw an angel cloud in the sky and decided that would be my special thing to give her. all were amazed by what they saw.
And that day on I Fell Inlove with her its not about her looks, its not about how she dressed and etc, its about how simple she was.
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